� Catharine, here

OK so I am probably clinically depressed, if I went and got a list of symptoms I have a feeling that reading it would involve a lot of Well, duh. Fortunately I have better things to do than go get a list of symptoms, like for instance tearing out my fingernails and fretting, so for the time being my self-diagnosis will remain unconfirmed. I want to quit this miserable godforsaken excuse for a job now now now but it�s only three weeks and less than two and a half days, one week and the 2.5 until I can give notice, and I feel like this is something like Anthropology 045 that should be a lot easier for me to shut up and do. Every day it�s worse, every day I hate everyone I work with plus myself a little bit more. (Except Nurse Rachel.) Everything makes me want to cry.

It looks like last night someone read every entry I�ve ever posted. Did you like them?

Kitty says you can�t force it and most of the time I like to think that there�s something to be gained from the effort of trying but today I see her point.